Oh, no....

So, I figured I'd better leave an account of just how we found out about, "the twins" for everyone who has been asking questions. Yesterday was my first doctors appointment since finding out I am pregnant. We have been joking about having twins for a couple of weeks now. While I was in Utah over the break I had been dreaming about twins and my family teased me. My sister gave us her used double stroller and Chuck kept joking that it was jinxed and that it surely meant we would be having twins. Even the morning of my appointment I told my mom I was excited to go to the doctor so he could assure me I was just carrying one. Our dr. was super nice, a good friend recommended him. When the ultrasound showed up, it was clear there was two babies in there. The dr. didn't say anything for what felt like a very long time. I was preparing myself to hear that one of them was dead, but there were two little heartbeats and two little bodies moving around. The first thing that came out of the dr.s mouth was, "Oh no........it's.......twins. Chuck and I both started laughing witch quickly turned to weeping on my end. I didn't know what to think, and the dr. seemed confused by our reactions. The babies were exactly the same size which is probably a good sign. The dr. thinks they're identical but we might not know for sure until they're born.

Overall this pregnancy has been quite different from my first. Even though I was really sick with Jack, this time has been much worse. Every symptom I've had seems multiplied. I think this was my biggest reason for thinking I was carrying twins.

For those who've asked how I'm feeling....I am excited, so excited I can barely stand it. I'm also terrified. I'm really scared of losing one or both of these babies. I think that's my biggest fear right now. The dr. did a pretty good job at easing that fear a little. I'm scared I'm losing too much weight right now( 16 lbs. so far) and more scared of gaining too much later on and turning into a blimp. I have barely even entertained what it will be like having two newborns, three kids in diapers, and a move to Detroit shortly after their births'. I'm not ready to worry about that yet.

Thanks everyone for all the calls and support it means a lot to our little family.