I know I haven't blogged much lately. I try to avoid it when I know I'll whine. I've felt very whiney lately. We've been home with Lucy just over a week now. She's been gaining weight and we're really happy about that. The truth is I hate the NG tube. I know it's good for her but it's made our lives that much more complicated. She feeds by mouth through the day and then we give her a continuous feed through the night. She doesn't tolerate the volume of food very well and will often throw up. We have to get up every four hours to change the milk. She likes to kink the cord when she sleeps which sets off an alarm. Then it seems like it will wake one baby up and then that baby will wake the other baby up. You think the girls would be use to each other by now but they seem to get more and more annoyed with the other. We've been getting next to no sleep. The girls screamed for hours last night. They both have colds. Lucy is really what makes the equation so difficult. She's not "allowed" to cry and so she's become totally spoiled and is extremely difficult to get back to sleep. My experience with these girls is so different from Jack. Jack was a really hard baby except for the fact that he was an amazing sleeper. He started sleeping through the night at 7 weeks. I miss that. It's not so bad when my mom is here and we can split up the night in shifts but she is currently in Cabo. Booo. We miss you Momma!
In other news, Hazel looks so cute in her new helmet. It's a lot bigger than the last one. We still need to think of how we are going to decorate it. Jack is still obsessed with letters. His new favorite words are JOG and STOP. I wrote those capitalized because that is how Jack prefers them. I don't think he even knows what jog means but he really likes spelling it with his magnets and insists on sleeping with his magnet letters, J-O-G. Weird kid.
Our biggest stress right now is the upcoming surgery. Chuck and I are both a little terrified, especially considering how difficult the last one was. We're trying to have faith and to let go of what is out of our control.
7 comments:
Some day this too shall pass. Right? ;o) I'm sorry about all the crappiness. Maybe once Spring arrives everything will feel better. Jack cracks me up!
sleepless nights are the worst! Oh I'm so sorry. I'm glad to here that lucy is gaining weight though. Oh the blessings you are recieving for being such a good mommy. (even if they aren't right now) Love ya!
Oh man, I'm so sorry you have to deal with that. Parenthood is hard. I hope things get better soon for you guys. We have been praying for you.
I'm so sorry. The sleepless nights will end eventually. Our family is praying for yours, especially with the big surgery coming up. Good luck!
The NG Tube is so hard to get use to, Whitney's had her's for about 3 months now. We've tried tons of different ways and schedules to get enough food in her with it. The continuous drip is the worst! (for the parents) And yeah, they always seem to throw up!But in the end it is the best thing for them and the only way to help them gain weight. Hoping all is well anyway!
Alicia, mommy to Whitney K. RCDH & ECMO survivor 7/21/10
Well her last helmet was adorable so i'm sure this new design will be great! And Jack is adorable.
Eliza . I really am missing your kids. I really want to see them all again. Are you sure you won't just send one of them to Orem and let us raise her here.?
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