Sunday, August 1, 2010

Early Morning Thoughts

I probably shouldn't be allowed to blog this early in the morning but my mind is racing and it's my turn to be up with the babies. Lucy is asleep in her swing and Hazel is just falling asleep in my lap. I love my children so much. I feel so lucky to have been blessed with such wonderful children. Lucy has been doing great. The doctors have been watching her closely. We went to the pediatrician this week on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and we'll be back again on Monday. I have a feeling this is what life will be like from now on. Lucy seems like a regular baby with a few exceptions. She doesn't eat as well as her sister and she sometimes has a hard time regulating her breathing, especially while eating. Our goal for her right now is to get her as big as we can to prepare her for surgery.
Hazel may also be needing surgery. We will be going back to Children's Mercy on Thursday so Hazel can get a CT scan done as well as an ultrasound of her brain. The worry with her is that she may have cranial synostosis, which is a premature fusion of her skull bones. If this is the case they will need to operate to give her brain room to grow. I am anxious to get some answers and have been worrying a lot about her. We never expected Hazel to be born with anything wrong with her. All of our focus has been on Lucy.
If the birth of my daughters has taught me anything it is that we should never doubt the power of our Heavenly Father. He can show miracles to any of us who are looking. It could be easy to overlook the blessings we've received and attribute them to chance. I think our Heavenly Father puts miracles in our lives to see if we will recognize his hand. Our pediatrician told us Lucy's collateral arteries were the biggest she'd ever seen. Those arteries are what are keeping her from having her first surgery. I have every hope that Hazel will see her own miracles this week. But whatever happens with my girls, I know it will be for the best.


Laurie said...

We are grateful for Heavenly Father's tender mercies. We pray that He will help all of you through this journey. If you need me to come, I will. LOVE YOU!!!

Carlie said...

You are such a good mama. Those girls are lucky to have you. I was feeling like Hazel was a little left out of all the prayers and fasting so she was my focus yesterday. I have gained a testimony of fasting through your babies. I feel connected to them even though I haven't even met them yet. I can't wait until I get to! Hang in there. We love you guys!

Katie said...

I totally second all Carlie's comments. We've been praying for you and your girls for so long that we love them so much! Every time I see pictures of them I cry. I am so happy that you are all together. Heavenly Father is watching out for you! He'll watch out for Hazel too. I can't even imagine how much you're going through right now. Tired, postpartum hormones, recovering from major abdominal surgery, plus add on to that extra worry about both of your girls health. Not that I need to tell you any of this! I love you! Hang in there!

Em said...

You are such an amazing mommy, Eliza. Your kids are so lucky. Your girls are so cute! Thank you for the words about miracles...i really needed to hear that. love you Eliza!

Abraham and Sara said...

I am proud of you. You are such a great example to me. Thank youmfor sharing your beautiful thoughts.

mckay said...


These pictures are adorable. They make the girls real. I am surprized by how much bigger Hazel is than Lucy.

Hope the CT goes well today. I expect it will confirm sagital craniosynostosis and no underlying abnormality, but who knows.

Thank you SO much for posting the pics. They allow us Utahns to participate in these little precious babies. And Jack, what a little cutie.

Eliza, I love you, support you, and wish you faith, strength and capacity. Moroni talks a bout those who are of "strong faith in every form of godliness" and also describes his father as "sober". These babies will require all of us to have faith in God, lower our heads in humility and go through whatever He asks us to go through and do it all with meekness, love, patience and "strong faith". You are doing great and I know your sisters, mother and I are emotionally, spiritually in this with you.


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A girl needs 2 Talk said...

I am trying to go back in your posts to understand and get to know your babies better.

I am going to keep sending you plenty of positive healing energy. God bless you all. :)