Early Morning Thoughts

I probably shouldn't be allowed to blog this early in the morning but my mind is racing and it's my turn to be up with the babies. Lucy is asleep in her swing and Hazel is just falling asleep in my lap. I love my children so much. I feel so lucky to have been blessed with such wonderful children. Lucy has been doing great. The doctors have been watching her closely. We went to the pediatrician this week on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and we'll be back again on Monday. I have a feeling this is what life will be like from now on. Lucy seems like a regular baby with a few exceptions. She doesn't eat as well as her sister and she sometimes has a hard time regulating her breathing, especially while eating. Our goal for her right now is to get her as big as we can to prepare her for surgery.

Hazel may also be needing surgery. We will be going back to Children's Mercy on Thursday so Hazel can get a CT scan done as well as an ultrasound of her brain. The worry with her is that she may have cranial synostosis, which is a premature fusion of her skull bones. If this is the case they will need to operate to give her brain room to grow. I am anxious to get some answers and have been worrying a lot about her. We never expected Hazel to be born with anything wrong with her. All of our focus has been on Lucy.

If the birth of my daughters has taught me anything it is that we should never doubt the power of our Heavenly Father. He can show miracles to any of us who are looking. It could be easy to overlook the blessings we've received and attribute them to chance. I think our Heavenly Father puts miracles in our lives to see if we will recognize his hand. Our pediatrician told us Lucy's collateral arteries were the biggest she'd ever seen. Those arteries are what are keeping her from having her first surgery. I have every hope that Hazel will see her own miracles this week. But whatever happens with my girls, I know it will be for the best.