This was a picture of Lucy taken just a few minutes ago. They took out her breathing tube today and she didn't do too well without it so they've got this mask on her to help her out a little. She stops breathing about three times today over a period of 45 mins but she recovered from it just fine. The mask is making her look pretty swollen but I think she's feeling okay. Tonight she's doing a little better than she was doing last night. She was acting pretty uncomfortable. This girl is so tough. She amazes me.
I've had a lot of time with my thoughts today. Chances are if you're reading this post I've thought about you. Not very many of you have met Lucy. Some of you haven't even met me. I'm grateful that so many people care anyway. My sister told my mother that she received 10 phone calls from people asking how Lucy was doing the day of her surgery. If that was you, thank you. Thank you for your prayers and thoughts. My family's burden truely has been lifted.
I have been thinking about all the prayers said on Lucy's behalf. Prayer is a difficult thing to understand. Did our prayers for Lucy save her? My guess would be, no. I don't think that's the point. This year I feel like I've begun to see miracles. I think they've always been there but my eyes were not opened. We see what are heart will let us. Heavenly Father wants us to acknowledge him and notice His hand in our lives. We have to let go and trust. Even if that means giving up everything. It was when we let go of everything that we were blessed and Lucy's heart began to beat again. I believe that it doesn't matter what religion you are a part of or not part of, if you ask in faith your prayers will be heard.
On a lighter note, Hazel is getting FAT. I went home, changed her diaper and she looked 10 pounds heavier(give or take). Jack's hair is so long I was able to put it in a teeny tiny ponytail today. I've probably gained pounds myself from all the crap I've been eating here. You're not allowed to eat in the PICU but I sneak it. Plus, the women next door nearly killed her son (whole other story, but HIPPA might get me if I say more) so I figure they can't get too mad for sneaking coconut M&M's. By the way if you haven't tried them you really should. I'm just saying.